Today my aunt, uncle and cousins came up to the hospital and brought Evan with them. Evan has been staying with them during the weekend and they take him to church on Sunday. This was the first time that Evan has really seen Aidan since the accident, 7 weeks ago. We were able to take him back once in the PICU, but it was only for a minute or two.
Evan was happy to see Aidan. He studied him for a minute or so and then got this huge smile on his face. The other night when I was working on Aidan's video, Evan was sitting in my lap and he kept waving to Aidan's pictures on the screen and kept saying "hey". It was cute.
Today made me sad though. I'm so used to telling Aidan to be gentle with Evan, and now that is reversed. I want the old Aidan back. I want him to run around the house jabbering nonsense and screaming. I want to hear him laughing and I want him to be able to play with his baby brother.
I always want what I can't have or what I'm not supposed to have yet. It was that way when I wanted a baby. We kept trying and trying and I'd cry and cry because I wanted a baby so badly. Finally, when the time was right we were blessed with Aidan. I just need to remember that God answers our prayers in His own time and in His own way. We may not like His answer but it's always what we need.
I just miss our old, boring, normal life- Staying at home and being lazy, playing with the kids on the weekend. I miss Aidan climbing up in my bed to snuggle with me when he'd wake up in the morning. I'm just feeling really down right now. Sorry to drag everyone with me.
We've ordered some silicone wristbands that say "Pray for Aidan" on them that we are going to be selling to help raise money for some of the treatments and for some equipment that insurance won't cover. When they come in, I'll put the info on here along with a picture. We got 5 different colors to choose from (royal blue, green, red, orange and navy.)
Please continue to keep Aidan in your prayers. He's made a lot of improvements and I'm hoping that we'll see even more once we start the hyperbaric treatments.
3 comments:
Please don't ever think you are dragging us down. We all love you and your family and want to be here for you no matter what. You are being very strong and we are praying for even more grace and strength and healing and restoration. Hugs!
Psalm 103:2-5, I Peter 2:24, Psalm 91
Praying that the Lord will see you through this "down time" and that you always remember that you can lean on HIS shoulder! HE knows all that you are feeling! I go through those times and yes it is hard but there is always a rainbow at the end of the tunnel. We've got another little boy also. He was 3 and a half months old at the time of the accident. I know what you mean about the whole reverse thing. It's been hard not having things the way I dreamed of. But keep going! Believe it or not, it will be a great journey. Tough...no doubt but God's glory will overshine all the sadness. Praying for Aidan, you, and your family!...
Hi Wright family, This is Tulsa friend Diana of Dennis and Diana. Dennis just told me About Aidan. My heart goes out to You. I am praying for you and your family. I know God will continue to give you strength as he has for the past few months. as for weighing us down, it would be less than honest not to. It's understandable to have your good days and bad. Know that we all Love and care for you and are asking/thanking God for wrapping you in his arms for some much needed rest The Harliens
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